beechybelle  beechin fine

what is Love when its too late,  missing out the agenda.

its no longer “love” but..

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REGRETS.

did mention about lifeless life. how ironic.

i still suffer post-exam grieve. grieving for i did not do well.. i never tend to feel any JOY after my exam, not in any seconds after the last paper. i know very well..i flunked it yet again.

My love definitely knew what i was suffering as i prefer not to sleep in the night but do whatever i could to drain the energy out of myself so i could collapse and doze off later on in the morning.

just wanna thank you for so much careful gentleness you are showering me with. the whole bangkok idea is to celebrate the “after exam” im sorry my love. i do not feel any..atltho we are flying in 1 more day to be exact. Don’t worry..ill wrap myself up pretty soon..ought to since there is no other option.

went to a mad slaughtering income shopping today. more about that coz it really worth a post. spent over 10k. jk

anyway im about to share the most satisfying spends on.

yep a book. about to get grisham’s brethren yet i got this “Marley & me”

im in chapter nine and im about to laugh all my tears out already. here is some classic sarcasm quotes

1.here is the part where the mistress save that idiotic dog’s life

she swooped in, pried his jaws open with one hand, and reached deep into his gullet with the other, pulling out a large, saliva-coated wad of cellphone..

marley left out a last cough, banged his tail against the wall, and looked at her with an expression that said, CAN WE DO IT AGAIN?

2. here is the confessional part of the master opinion of the dog LOL!!!!

he is a big, loving dope of a dog whose defense strategy against intruders would surely have been to lick them to death

a really heart warming book and believe in few sentences it might brings you to tears. try it =] you’l laugh and cry and feel pity to John Grogan and his wife Jenny for owning

the world’s worst dog.

i do understand this particular “worst dog in the world” feeling. Hero, never in a day failed to give me hard times.

Chewing on toilet papers, underwears of his dad, my bras, carpets, the corners of the cupboard IN SHORT ANYTHING CHEW-able. Lucky enough hero is quite a cleanliness freak so he is a well toilet trained dog. So one day if he decided to go notty, he will perhaps pee on my bed than his own carpet. CHAO DOG!!!!!!!!

No matter how much complains and unsatisfactory towards this westie of mine..i love him. with all my heart. He is really there when i need consolation, he cant talk but he will sit and watch me, just watch to make sure ill be ok until his dad is home. i wouldnt mind spending my whole life with him..if he have only sam and i..we too..have only him to shower our love and complains.

taken 2 weeks ago while playing “hide and seek”. sometimes he will hide everything except his head like what you see in the picture..or vice versa. hiding only his head in the blanket but the body =’= he is quite pointless i know.

see you guys after bangkok

after my exam i felt that im such a piece of vegetable.

Vege that wakes up around 2pm everyday ( did not lunch and breakfast everyday. just eat junk )

Vege that then watch drama/psp until her love one come home, then go for dinner

after dinner, lepak drama or psp again

then go for supper

after supper LEPAK PSP with love one until midnight.

morning goodbye kiss to lovey and continue sleeping until 2 pm

*bonus activity is shopping

OMG IM SUCH A VEGETABLE. i hate this life!!!!!!! been looking for jobs.. but hell no news yet and i REFUSE big big REFUSE to go anywhere that my dad have connection. it feels like there is no way i can find a comfortable job without my dad’s help? LIFELESS.USELESS.PENNILESS

i feel like there is nothing to look forward the next day. I do not feel like posting anything that ive been thru last two months because all the events will makes me felt im fucking vegetable now.

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*back watching drama* SEE! lifeless!!!!

im supposed to post about my birthday dinner..but this thing just lure me again and again. seduce me to the max to leave that post alone. left few more picture to upload yet..im glued into this

ITS FUCKING STEAMY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

for an asian..he is a freaking good kisser! wuuah the tongues and all. seriously i don think i ever like any taiwan dramas after “The Rose” which is tad funny

i dint even like iswak “It started with a kiss” at all. but i think TKA “they kissed again” is damn funny!!!!! ok unlike those unrealistic typical taiwan drama, its quite good to apply in real life. a few i’ve been thru and i think they do pull out the feelings =D

so i love it! you guys check out the steamy scene UNCUT

*the taking off clothes part is not in the script hor*

AND the making of those steam scene huhuhuhu~

1. NG 1st episode obscene scene

*”lao po cha kou sui” WUUUAHHHH!!!!!! i love i wan!!

2. NG another obscene scene

from those vid comments they said Joe is really into Ariel. hmm i don give a  FF i just love this drama. my cousin sister said there are more news in chinese..too bad i dont know how to read..and if i listen i think they news will be different from what it meant HAHAHA.

ok check it out now!! Im in epi 10 adi! 10 more to go! then i will update..

oh btw did i mention the possible person who will makes me be charged sexual harassment or rape?

yes *slurping* he is soo hot but i think i like him since “The Rose” where is character is damn funny! the personality he protayed infront of the media is really good. He did made people believe he is obsessed over ariel so i like him. NO SHY wuahahaha. eh yuen chang can i rape you? *runns*

i do not know the future of our country. although that are alot have change, yet there are still that are not aware that the bond between rakyat is very important. “love thy neighbour” do not happen much in malaysia. At least i witnessed mine, the “unbelievable lady” opposite my house.

Case : my cousin sister nicely parked her car considerably her territory which is not. not really. ( you know the space outside the compound of your porch, i think not many know, it doesnt mean the road is outside your house, then its your territory. it doesnt belong to anyone except the Taman’ s, so does the airway of your house, youre the owner of land but not the airway HAHAHAHAHHA wtf! damn funny right? )

Crazy women : YOU STUPID AH! u parked the car outside my house!!!!!

i was sleeping soundly after i came back from murderous examination. being very lucky coz i’ve survived it. Suddenly my cousin brother barged into my room and nervously shouted

“meiyee! faster wake up, opposite got crazy women scold my sister!”

me : what is wrong, why are u shouting like that

crazy women : u stupid! whole family also stupid! you go inside la! why you park here!!!! #$%^& ( the race discriminating chant )

me : oh nice. that is defamation, u insulted my family verbally and nicely raised racial issue, lastly aunty, that place im sorry that she parked outside your house but seriously that is not your territory, you do not owned the land *plus smile*

crazy women : YOU STUPID!!!!

i went in with my cousin sister after she replaced the car back into our compound. I think my cousin sister is not that liberal that she knew she have all the rights to park her car there, my cousin..she is just as unbelievable! i know the fucking right yet i will not do so because “oustside-my-place=myplace” is a convention no?!

me : sis u are unbelievable la.. there is no way you park outside her house ( outside not directly la the side side there wan LOL )

sis : one day only ma!

me in my heart thinks..knn if you know youre rights u park there u have guts lo..but U BLINDLY PARK THERE!!! salute la.

i waited there for a while and cant take the “whole family is crazy” thingy because…we are hardly at home. since when did we offend her? i went back right in front of her house and demand apology.

me : excuse me, can you come out and we talk

CW: i dowan to talk to stupid like you. i report police now!

me : oh you better do, because i will eventually do it after you

CW : oi! u stupid ah ! you everyday park the car outside my place!!!

HWATTTTTTTTTTTT THE FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK LA AUNTY! !! THIS IS FUCKING THE FIRST TIME ALRIGHT!!

me : oh, you sure of that? *calmly look at her*

CW : …

me : you, defame, raise racial issue when i am not even tresspassing. look im sorry that she parked at place and it upsets you but isit fair that you bring my whole family in?

CW : ok! settle! sorry! ( like seriously THAT WAS FUCKING EASY! I WAS THINKING HOW IM GONNA DE-SKIN HER IF SHE DONT SAY SORRY! )

me : good *smile, turns around, shouted*

AND I DONT WANNA SEE YOUR CAT IN MY HOUSE EVER AGAIN

*heard her screams at my back*

that was come back i wanted to unleash at her long long ago. she does not feed her pussy and all the pussy came my house for ju yok HAHAHAHAHAH. oh well. im damn happy with the last sentence huhu

sigh..cant believe such stupid thing is my first post after my exam..its so hard to survive with such barbaric people.